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paranoia..

elidah-08 — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 17:10:18 +0000

im getting so paranoid now a days. i do trust him but there’s a little space of fright inside me.. there were times that i really wanna cry hard but i just control these tears to fall. i do love him and its deeply and true, but i why am i feeling this thing? he said that he loved me too but he spent more of his free time in playing computer games. that made me think that he’s not that into me. that he’s not that interested. that he might not care if i will be out of his life.

there were time that when i assesst my past i just conclude one thing, that im bound to exert efforts for them but their efforts were quite few. waahh im just wondering if im fated to have this situation? im not begging for anything in return but isn’t it too unfair for my side? well on the lather part i still ignore those stuff cause i dont want to have another failure. i dont deserve it.

as i assesst my self regarding this matter, i knew that im doing my part and im welling to risk things for just this thing to last. hope i’l be treated with full caress and understanding these day with my love one. i really need affection as of the moment. im so down and i dont want to think so much about problems. but i dont think that i could have it now, cause he’s a bit busy… miracle .. miracle where are you??

haiiztt though things were like that i still love him no matter what.

and i want our relationship to last forever. i might not the one he loved first but hopefully i’m goin to be the last person that he will share vows and forever.. im might be saying words for future matters but that what i wanted us to be.. ilove him truly and deeply and hope he’l feel the same way as i do. and hope he will never hurt me, cause i’ve experience being hurt once and twice is a big NO NO.

its all about heart

elidah-08 — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 16:10:54 +0000

im bound to prevent my heart from falling for someone… i tend to like people that i used to hang out with.. (im referring with my friends). i dunno if cupid hits me this time. but i still pretending not to feel anything though i admit when it becomes to love, im becoming weak.. as time past by i just go with the flow, not knowing where i should go. know its a bit risky but i still tried, dunno whats my motivation for me to permit my self in doing such thing.. the rocks stops me but the wind wont let me stop.. each second seems im trapped. and since im getting immune in this flow, i just let my self go with its flow. but the river is too long when will i met the sea? well i really dont know. im a bit confuse if i’l take this thing… if i let him enter my heart that keeps on waiting?, will this be another mistake? or will this be the thing that would make me move onwards? well i really dont know.. hehehe haiizt Lyf so nice..

he was taken away from me.

elidah-08 — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:04:59 +0000

i hate feeling that something has been taken away from me.. i hate feeling that he doesnt want me either. i hate it.! i hate everything but life should be as it is.. trials are bound to test your faith and even your strenght. but my faith regarding this matter.. has been shattered by the arrival of the strong hurricane that life ever slapped me. i guess i have to face and surpass the obstacles that comes my way. and i just have to live my life to the fullest. i can live even though he’s not within my vicinity but i know deep within its hard to breathe without him as my air. how suppose i live without it?? well i definitely dont know the answer to that very question… i guess i need to go on my way and just left everything i had as a history. thought the bottom line is it hurts so much, i should let the pain kills me untill i feel nothing, till i get numb.. till im free from the pain that i felt the time he was taken away from me.

im hurt.

elidah-08 — Thu, 18 Oct 2007 16:55:48 +0000

here i go again..
another failure.
it hurts xoxo much.
that it still BURNING INSIDE
how could i fix this mess again
when there’s another sum1
who makes mty heart broke
into pieces
the sad thing is…

i cant dare say it to his face.
no way.!
damn.!!!

ahhh…
fo0Lish heart…
xoxo sad that i’ve had to feel
this way again..

as the song goes:

"i was afraid this time would come
i wasnt prepared to FACE this kind of HURTIN from WITHIN.
i have LEARNED to LIVE MY LIFE BESIDE YOU.."

that best describe how i feel.
xoxo damn hurt.

i cant do something for this thing to fade fast.
a friend say it wont happen in just a snap, cause i’ve love him truly and deeply.

i cant cry to release this pain, since
its not right cause we’re not into a relationship. its like one sided love..

one sided.??

its just that i love him.
he might have know it or he might not be aware of it. but the bottom line is. HE DOESN’T FEEL THE SAME WAY AS I DO.
ouch.

well if you could help me with this thing just feel free to drop on ur comments or just send me personal msgs here on friendster. i’ll appreciate it so much.. just dont feel so fine.. tnx in advace…

just fade away

elidah-08 — Mon, 23 Jul 2007 15:33:50 +0000

There was this guy that I adore. I never see something negative about him, though I see something but t doesn’t matter. I never thought everything would just fade away. Well honestly I still have a few here deep within but totally my feelings were gone. I do love him but I hate him. Oh so insane. I just don’t know what to do. Well I don’t have the right to be mad in the first place because were just, let say acquaintance. But t do hurts. I just wonder if he knows that I got this undeniably sentiment over him.??? Hopefully he doesn’t sense anything, though he’s such a stone hearted. No need to bother?? But I’m just scared that when he found out he will sing song that would totally devastate everything we’ve got from the very start. The friendship or acquaintance we’ve have will be lost and t might be forever. Oh.!! T would be so difficult. Hope he just never exist so wont have this rubbish feelings over him

be3baby now taht i found you

elidah-08 — Sun, 24 Jun 2007 11:54:37 +0000

uAlison Krauss lyrics,
Baby, Now That I’ve Found You lyrics

Baby,
now that I’ve found you
I won’t let you go
I built my world around you
I need you so,
baby even though
You don’t need me
now

Baby,
now that I’ve found you
I won’t let you go
I built my world around you
I need you so
Baby even though
You don’t need me,
You don’t need me oh, no

Baby, baby,
when first we met
I knew in this heart of mine

That you were someone I couldn’t forget.
I said right,
and abide my time

Spent my life looking
for that somebody
to make me feel like new
Now you tell me that you want to leave me
But darling, I just can’t let you

[guitar & fiddle solo]

Baby, baby,
when first we met
I knew in this heart of mine
That you were someone I couldn’t forget.
I said right,
and abide my time

Spent my life looking
for that somebody
to make me feel like new
Now you tell me that you want to leave me
But darling, I just can’t let you

Now that I found you
I built my world around you

I need you so, baby even though
You don’t need me now

Baby, now that I’ve found you
I won’t let you go
I built my world around you
I need you so
Baby even though
You don’t need me
You don’t need me no, no

catch me im falling for you..

elidah-08 — Sun, 24 Jun 2007 11:53:02 +0000

catch me..
im falling for you..
how can i feel so wrong
feel so right all alone..

hehehe

he’s what i want
that i cant get
always in my dreams
but kinda far in reality
one glimpse of him
makes me feel so right
but knowing my deepest desire
would make me cry
hehehe i dnt want him to know that
im falling for him again
coz im not that prepared
for the next thing to happen

but i cant take it
what i should do?

hope God would permit
for me to love him once
and for me to know
what it feels
to be with this
some one special
in my
heart

i want him again.

elidah-08 — Tue, 19 Jun 2007 15:43:24 +0000

er-im so happy/sad now a days. bcoz of this bizzarre thing that just pop out as i spit out?? confused? doesnt matter just read. anyways er… as far as i remember he who must not be named had been my history (am i ryt?? ) i left him in my past though we still see each other, its just that last week i’ve open a topic regarding this matter with another sumone who must not be named. i thought that it would end it up but.. it doesnt. it gets more … more dangerous each and everyday. i dunno if i still can keep this eww…secret of mine as i often said "ung baho ng luvlyf q" hehehe its not stinky but you know it can cause fire.!!fire..!! ahhh im so… so sad . er.. maybe becoz… blah.. blah .. blah i want him again.. dont know how, when and WHY. its just that i want him again.

w/underline

left- forget

a long tym

elidah-08 — Sat, 05 May 2007 12:39:00 +0000

its been a long tym since i post a blog here. well its because na troma ko. u know i used to pour my hidden emotion here in my blog. if i cant dare say it better type it in. aun na troma aq kc as far as i know nalaman nung taong pinaguukulan ko ng emotion ung nararamdamn ko sa knya. kea aun yw ko na uling magpost d2 but then aun ok nmn na past is past. i must open a new chapter. if he’s still der ok fyn db.?? well im so bc thuis vacation almost everyday kc akong nsa work kea aun. nweiz gottah end this up.

a long tym

elidah-08 — Sat, 05 May 2007 12:38:59 +0000

->>fHaYehEaRt

paranoia..

its all about heart

he was taken away from me.

im hurt.

just fade away

be3baby now taht i found you

uAlison Krauss lyrics,Baby, Now That I’ve Found You lyrics

catch me im falling for you..

i want him again.

a long tym

a long tym

uAlison Krauss lyrics,
Baby, Now That I’ve Found You lyrics